How I’ve coped with going back college…

Cue long rambley post with all my feelings!

Going back to college after three years has been a rollercoaster of a journey. It has had some serious ups and downs.

I was anxious to go back to the college I attended three years ago due to various personal reasons. However, it was a different course and with different people, so I thought it would be a great experience meeting new friends and studying towards my career as a nurse. 


At the beginning of the course I made friends with a group of girls and it was great. We were a really big class and having those girls by my side was good for support and hanging out with. Over the weeks and months, right up until Christmas, more and more people were dropping out. I got to know another girl, as her friends had left and I started to try include her. However I found the closer I got to her, the more I was pushed out of the group. 

Unfortunately she then decided to leave the course too. Then I had no one. 

The class kept getting smaller and smaller until eventually there was just 8 of us. Everyone in the class got to know each other more and there weren’t separate ‘cliques’ anymore.

Turns out there was.. it was just one clique and I didn’t fit in.

I don’t know how, I was a part of the group to begin with. I tried so very hard to join in. The group was a mixture of girls and a lot of them are loud and opinionated, which is fine. I like listening and when I have something to contribute, I’ll chip in. 

This wasn’t the case, I could never get a word in edge ways. The group were always going off to McDonald’s or shopping and I’d get left behind.

One day, how I felt came out in the open. I was told that I look like a miserable cunt and I never join in. After explaining my side of the story, it came across that the group felt awkward around me because I hardly ever talk and even though this is because I never get a chance to, I just said I’d do my best to join in more.

After that, I thought it would get better. It did for a bit, a few of them talked to me more. However after a while it just went back to normal. They did buy me a birthday cake (everyone gets one) but they literally gave it to me and hardly interacted with me for the rest of the day. 

So as I am writing this, I am sitting by myself after having a panic attack and failing an exam. The group have left and gone to McDonald’s. 


The college course has been so intense! I could have really done with the support of college friends. Instead I have delt with issues alone. Even though I have my family behind me, it’s not the same of having someone who is doing the course with you.

2 more weeks left in college and then hopefully I will have completed and passed the whole course. With this in mind I hope I don’t have the same issues in University, otherwise it will be a long, difficult three years. 

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What I got for my birthday | 23

At the beginning of May I turned 23. Here’s a quick roundup of what I received from my boyfriend and family.

Gym membership and personal training sessions. Not very exciting I know but something very useful as I need all the motivation I can get.

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Rose gold double ring necklace. My little sister is the cutest. She saw a bracelet that I have which is similar to this and so decided to get it for me as a necklace to match.

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Rose gold bracelet. Another piece of gorgeous jewellery to add to my collection.

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Nursing student planner. This is an amazing present. As you all know I am hopefully going to going to university in September to start my nursing degree, so this will become very useful.

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FeD Chef Special | Review

Last week I was invited back, with Johny to FeD Cardiff to try their new chef special menu.

If you don’t know who Fed are they are a ‘Food Exploration Destination‘. A restaurant were you can have dishes from a wide range of cuisines including; Chinese, Italian, Indian, Japanese, Tex-Mex and Grill.

 

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Moving forward…

I want to share a personal update with you, it is something which is a big step but  I am very excited about!

As some of you may know, I decided to go back into education and start an Access to Healthcare course last September.

I must say, I was told it was an intense course, however nothing could prepare me for this. It’s bloody hard!

I am still plodding along with the course, there’s days when I am laying in bed sobbing over the coursework.. I am determined to make it to the end and finish the course though.

If anyone’s got tips on motivation, send them my way!

The last few months have been tough as well, because not only have I been attending college, I have started training for a new job. I am now a health care support worker. I have had to miss days off college and reschedule exams and assignment days to work around my training. Apart from that, I am really enjoying the training and have learn’t a lot already. It’s been great to be hands on.

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Current beauty favourites

Since being on Roaccutane, I have found it difficult to wear makeup as my skin has been so sensitive and irritable, anything can set it off. Recently my skin has been better and I have been able to wear makeup a couple of times a week.

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My current favourites are; Benefit Sugarbomb Blusher, RealTechniques 101 Triangle Foundation Brush, Eyeko Liquid Black Eyeliner and Bourjois Healthy Mix Foundation.

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What have you been loving recently?

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Your top five traveling essentials for a winter getaway

This time of year, most people like to book a short break away to get away from the dreary weather. You could be heading to Cologne for their famous markets, architecture and museums. Or perhaps you’ve decided to hit the slopes for some skiing, putting your feet up in front of a blazing fire each night. Whatever the destination, winter packing is just as difficult as traveling during the summer, so here are the essentials you should make sure you don’t leave home without.

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  1. Stylish holdalls

When you’re taking a break rather than a full holiday, try to cut down on your packing. By opting for a holdall that qualifies as a carry-on, you’ll not only make traveling to different cities easier, but you’ll cut out the cost of paying for checked-in baggage. There are some quirky designs out there these days too, which means you’ll stay on trend even when trekking through an airport. However, make sure you always buy a well-known luggage manufacturer, such as Antler or Tripp. Although that designer piece might look pretty, the chances are that the quality won’t be there.

  1. Organisers

It’s always a good idea to be organised for your trip. Shop around for your currency rate, try to book tickets for shows in advance where you can, always print your hotel confirmation, and make sure you have back-up paper copies of any e-boarding passes. The problem is, where do you put it all? There are some cute travel organisers that you can pick up on Etsy and Not on the High Street, and it means you’ll have everything in one place.

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  1. Fashion accessories

It’s always difficult choosing fashion accessories for winter holidays, so try to stick to simple additions. Invest in luxurious fur gloves, hats and scarfs that match, so that they can easily be paired with any outfit. When it comes to jewellery, stick to a few key statement pieces, such as your ChloBo charm bracelet and a timepiece with some sparkle.

  1. Mini first-aid kits

As it’s the colder time of year, it’s always a good idea to take cold and flu medicine with you, so that you don’t have to worry about finding a pharmacy whilst you’re in a foreign country. Try to second guess what you’ll need, such as plasters for your feet after those long walks around cobbled streets, or a lip-balm for your chapped lips from the harsh elements.

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  1. Think smart when packing

If you’re taking a holdall rather than a full suitcase, you’ll be looking for space-saving ideas: go for two jumpers instead of several thinner tops, wear your bulky coat for all weathers to the airport, but pack a lightweight waterproof, and make sure you wear your good pair of walking shoes too, cutting down on the weight. If you’re going skiing but you’re not a regular, the chances are you won’t have the gear, so buy cheaper versions or simply hire your ski-wear whilst you’re there.

Where are you heading to this winter?

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A look back at 2016

What a year, It’s had up’s and downs but I got through it. I had some lovely adventures with my blogging friends, including Bluestone and a trip to London. I also got to visit some amazing places with Johny, such as St David’s cathedral, Carew’s Castle and the Isle of Wight. I faced a fear – holding a snake. I bought a car and past my driving test. Both Johny and I had surgery on the same day. I started the Access to Healthcare course. I got a new job. But most importantly spent loads of time with my family. Here’s just some of my pictures from 2016.

 

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Roaccutane Journey | Month 3

Over the past two months, I have had a nightmare with my skin. I can honestly say, I don’t wish this upon anyone but my skin was so dry and sensitive. My skin was dry, patchy and flaky, especially around my nose, chin and forehead. Though my lips were the worst. They were cracking and peeling and kept bleeding all the time. They were so sore, my lips constantly felt like they were on fire; they were burning.

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